these days ema again colder shoulders to me. that let me review my situation
for more than an hour yesterday. but i finally *settled*, after seeing her
dark and sin. however after i woke up from a later doze in office, i felt
sad. i don't want to hurt her, and i know she under pressure and distress
exceeding her constrain. her reckons and the demon influence from her
mother, with a family name ruan, the same syllables can means in Chinese
soft, appeared in my mind and i felt i can do nothing except letting her to
choose in silent action. i follow God's way and in no way to fear men's
choice, no matter upon my way on the earth nor on other matters concerning
me or my beloved. God saves the faith, in his creatures on the earth.
however, silent dispute at home let me sad, i esp felt sad upon the time i
can be with my best beloved, warren, my baby son, my God, and the hope of
China, who brings me so pleasure now and then, here and there. i mean to
change, but don't figure to tear off our band in harmony with pains or
bleedings. however, after all, i trust God sees my way ahead, over any
unclear.
last afternoon in instant message i got known the mother-in-law of my second
elder sister passed away. her husband also in family name ruan, the same as
that of ema's mother, God lets it interwove and sins to die in sins they
committed. in the night i likely caught in a nightmare in which the old
woman exert fear in me. then my passed dad, my God and my forever hero,
returns home, just like missing a gathering and be late awhile. His seat
just there unchanged.
that's my highest pleasure, to see my dad in my dream. i didn't attend his
funeral ceremony, and that led my always unease. i know he love me so much
and i know he glad to see my absence from him in the end of his life on the
earth, knowing me in the road to reclaim our vested land of China in title
of family name zhu, and the only son doing the predefined task in sight of our
ancestor, the Emperor of Ming Dynasty.
its a bright day today. God knows how i cherish the bright and warmth. these
days Chinese laid off a lot in sinking enterprises in troubled economy, like
occur in other parts of the world. i know God see its a way leading me
through the block behind, toward the reunion with my all beloved girls, my
crowned queens.
bye. that's my utterance today. i love seeing my space extending, like the
wind spreading the message. love make u glad, just like it do me. i love u.
for more than an hour yesterday. but i finally *settled*, after seeing her
dark and sin. however after i woke up from a later doze in office, i felt
sad. i don't want to hurt her, and i know she under pressure and distress
exceeding her constrain. her reckons and the demon influence from her
mother, with a family name ruan, the same syllables can means in Chinese
soft, appeared in my mind and i felt i can do nothing except letting her to
choose in silent action. i follow God's way and in no way to fear men's
choice, no matter upon my way on the earth nor on other matters concerning
me or my beloved. God saves the faith, in his creatures on the earth.
however, silent dispute at home let me sad, i esp felt sad upon the time i
can be with my best beloved, warren, my baby son, my God, and the hope of
China, who brings me so pleasure now and then, here and there. i mean to
change, but don't figure to tear off our band in harmony with pains or
bleedings. however, after all, i trust God sees my way ahead, over any
unclear.
last afternoon in instant message i got known the mother-in-law of my second
elder sister passed away. her husband also in family name ruan, the same as
that of ema's mother, God lets it interwove and sins to die in sins they
committed. in the night i likely caught in a nightmare in which the old
woman exert fear in me. then my passed dad, my God and my forever hero,
returns home, just like missing a gathering and be late awhile. His seat
just there unchanged.
that's my highest pleasure, to see my dad in my dream. i didn't attend his
funeral ceremony, and that led my always unease. i know he love me so much
and i know he glad to see my absence from him in the end of his life on the
earth, knowing me in the road to reclaim our vested land of China in title
of family name zhu, and the only son doing the predefined task in sight of our
ancestor, the Emperor of Ming Dynasty.
its a bright day today. God knows how i cherish the bright and warmth. these
days Chinese laid off a lot in sinking enterprises in troubled economy, like
occur in other parts of the world. i know God see its a way leading me
through the block behind, toward the reunion with my all beloved girls, my
crowned queens.
bye. that's my utterance today. i love seeing my space extending, like the
wind spreading the message. love make u glad, just like it do me. i love u.
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